咳
累了吗？
我想我已经尽力了吧 ....

做了一些以前不可能做的事
不过似乎没有效
明明事实已经摆在我眼前
我还是不肯去信，不肯去听，不肯去看
为什么？
为什么要这样作践自己？

有时真的希望自己可以像playboy一样
想喜欢就喜欢，像不喜欢就不喜欢
自己掌控自己的感情
多好？
对，有很多人都不喜欢playboy
不过至少
至少不会伤害到自己
我想这是一种自我保护的意识吧？

为什么
每个星期我都会这样？
我应该怎样做？
教我可以吗？
在你嘴边徘徊的总是他
我和你根本没有些什么可以怀念的回忆
我还能期望些什么？
这一切都是我的错

我试着走向你
不过我却发现
我越是想靠近你
我越是靠近不了
对你的视线还越来越模糊
为什么？

很想忘记
不过
我忘记得了吗？
啊！
一万个为什么徘徊在我脑海
为什么我用了两年来忘记前一个
现在又要重复一样的事？
还要重复多少次才足够？
你又何曾站在我的立场想一想？

告诉我啊！
为什么我们总是要擦肩而过？
为什么？
你总是沉默着
算了吧 ....

无言
我总是这样
我该怎样做？
请你告诉我 ....


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/25/2009 05:29:00 AM

Share with you guys ~

Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


Te Amo , La Arena ....
¿me oyes !!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/22/2009 11:31:00 PM

整个下午都下着雨
我一直享受着这场雨
可能是因为这场雨下出了我的心情

我要求的不多
只想像以前一样
就已经很足够了

我和你之间到底隔着多远？
多少个脚步？
1000步？10000步？
还是区区的37间屋子？
我开始搞不清楚了 .....

你看不看这个blog
那一切不重要
重要的是
不要再这样了
好吗？

我一向来都是输的那一方
我也不敢渴求些什么
因为
输了，永远都没资格要求些什么
只可惜
在我还没正式输之前
又要筹备着下一个两年了 .....





你的出现
就像是一场暴风沙
模糊了我的视线
让我不知不觉
走进了一个我需要两年才走得出的暴风沙 ....


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/21/2009 02:54:00 AM

不知为什么
最近身边的朋友
都有感情问题 ...

听了他们诉苦后
我也会有不知名的感触
可能我也和他们一样吧 ....
哈！

不要难过！
雨过一定会天晴
振作起来！
医者难自医
我叫你们振作
我却不能 ....
无论如何
铭~希望你会回到以前的你 ...
虽然我知道很难
不过
请记得
不久后就会有我来陪你了！
Eva~你也是
要振作起来
我自持你！
不要轻易放弃！

一粒沙
名副其实
你就如一粒沙
一粒飘浮不定的沙
难以摸索，难以追逐 .....
我在和你说话啊！
你听到吗？！






* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/19/2009 02:54:00 PM

天意吗？
约好一起去吃LokLok
怎知下雨
一直祈求雨快停
10点，雨终于停了
很高兴
走到你家
4人走去
却在远处隐约看到没开
我觉得那档口有开
不过你们一口咬定没开
我也不想一时的猜测
令到你们要走这样远
你说想回家
虽然很饿，虽然很想你一起去别处喝茶
但是一看到你摇头
就不想再逼你
最后剩下我和Eva去买汉堡包
走了不久
发现原来那档口还开着
算了吧
本来打算吃LokLok的时候可以和你聊天
可是......
天意吗？

等了好久，失望了好久
回家的途中
和Eva聊了很多
我的心情全都告诉了她
多么希望站在我身旁让我诉说的是你
多么希望你可以明白
不过站在我身旁的始终不是你
天意吗？

Eva说一定会有下次的
我在想
会是几时？

天啊，玩弄我几次了？
哈！说得对
天意弄人

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/13/2009 03:26:00 AM

Suddenly feel want to spread all my feelings in english ....

It's all about today .

As usual , i went to school by bus .
Reached school at 9 am and my class was at 9.30 am .
Since there were still students inside the class , so i decided to wait outside the class with Ren Jian .


After a blink of an eye , all of the students inside the class came out
Then Ren Jian and I ran quickly to the class to find our seats
After awhile , the class started .
It was a boring class and i'm very sleepy , but i managed to overcome it
And finally , the class was over at 11 am
It was quite happy actually but unfortunately my next class was at 11 am too !!
Anyway , i still have to attend for the class
For the attendance , for my result . Ya , i stepped into the class .

Yeah ! It was an intresting class since our tutor was Mr . Joe , a funny tutor ! Ha !
My next class after Mr . Joe's class was at 4 pm , imagine how i passed the time in school ? Ha !
After Mr. Joe's class , Ren Jian and I walked to canteen with a starving face . Hahaha
Ren Jian and I ordered a plate of economic rice
Then we quickly find our seats and take our so-called ' Brunch ' ( The short form of Breakfast and Lunch ) Haha !

After that , Ren Jian and I went to reading room
When we reached infront of the reading room , we found that the door was locked up
Both the reading rooms were locked up too !!
Oh god ! We have to sit beside the corridor ....
While waiting the time pass , i took my earphone out and start listening to songs .
I tried to close my eyes and when i already almost fell asleep
Ren Jian suddenly wake me up and asked me whether want to join Elene's Sociology class or not
Since we were nothing to do , we went to join her class .
When we reached there , we only found that there were no place for us
Oh god ! We will have to go back to the corridor again .
While walking back to the corridor , i saw you and your friend walk towards our direction
Don't know why , i just acted like nothing and tried to see other people but not you
Is it shy ? No . Is it scare ? No .
I think its the combination of both .
Shy ? I don't know why . Scare ? Maybe scare of how the way you looked at me .
I cant stopped myself from looking at you but when i looked at you
You just nooded with Ren Jian but not me
You just turned your head away
I'm just like in ' Why ? ' situation
Why you just can't nod with me ?

Reached the corridor
Took out my earphone
Listening to songs
Looking at the corridor
I start thinking of something that i shouldn't think of ...
I started imagined that if i got a time machine , am i able to go back to the pass ?
The pass that everything was fine , was good enough
Good enough for me and you .
You were good with me last time
Although it was not very good
But it still statisfied me
You were still willing to Sms , Msn with me
Even when you met me in school
You will smile with me
But not for now
Everything was gone
Gone for awhile ? Forever ?
I don't know
You're hard to predict
I really want to know what you are thinking of .
Shit , maybe i fell too deep
I promised myself don't ever fall for anyone anymore , for this deep
I admit , i broke my promise
Ha ! Such an useless me !




Still remember where is this ?





The corridor
The corridor that i talked to you for the first time .
The corridor that i would never forget .



* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/10/2009 11:47:00 PM

今天振骏突然说要剪头发
要我们一起去，然后一起吃晚餐

带了振骏去FC那里剪( 因为EU One没开...哈！)
过后就去无招牌那里吃晚餐
终于啦！今天终于有Waffer了！！( 去了酱多次，都卖完了.... )
除了Waffer，还叫了一碗清汤肉碎伊面 ( 老板推荐的...还不错 )

当当当！！！



Waffer ！！( 牛油 + 花生酱 )



清汤肉碎伊面 ！！



他们的和照！！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！


吃完了，还不是很饱
就出去叫了一份汉堡包
怎知在等他做的时候
又觉得吃不下
哈哈！不过到最后还是买了....

不知做么
今天吃得特别多....哈哈哈哈哈！！



Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/09/2009 10:10:00 PM

说你
说我
说着缘份

---

不知什么原因
最近一直下雨

今天
也一如往常
下了一场倾盆大雨
我和仁键他们的计划只好等到雨停了才进行
怎知雨停了还是取消了
哈！改天才进行我们的计划吧~



So maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/09/2009 12:10:00 AM

也许从一开始就不应该开始
也许从一开始就因该自制
也许丘比特射错了箭
也许月老拉错了红线
也许就不应该也许
也许一切的也许也会跟着烟消云散

哈！只怪我笨，痴，傻
哈！到了现在才懂一只手是永远拍不响的
哈！尽头了吗？
哈！没天份吗？
哈！终止了吧？
哈！哈哈哈哈！



Eva，Dora，也许你们说得对
我真的很没用
不过还是那句
我
尽力了

又是另一个两年吗？
无言，无奈 .....

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/07/2009 09:01:00 PM

希望；
希望着永恒
希望着永远
希望着永久
希望着那永无止境的希望

失望；
失望着断点
失望着断离
失望着断尾
失望着那充满希望的失望

难道没有希望就不会失望吗？

有些时候希望变成失望
有些时候失望变成希望

人生啊~谈何容易
只有尽力的让希望不变成失望
这才是我们希望的
没有人会希望失望
所以
一起努力让希望不变成失望吧！

心中的希望不变
以前也是
现在也是
但愿成功！

V^.^



人生就如一场梦
我就是那块浮云~

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/06/2009 09:23:00 PM

哇！到了今天才发现原来要创一个部落格真的很难
不过还好有学到一点的WebpageDesign，再加上有仁键的帮忙
总算开张了！（第一次玩部落格 == ）
虽然还不是很完整（迟一点会再加些东西上去^.^），不过大致上还算可以吧？哈哈
凌晨4点了，是时候睡了吧？哈！晚安！！

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/06/2009 03:48:00 AM

testing

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11/06/2009 01:59:00 AM